I can’t believe she’s really gone. The last time I spoke
with her was before Christmas. Since
then I’d been mentally cataloguing all the things I wanted to tell her the next
time I talked to her and it breaks my heart to realize it will never happen. I’ll
never be able to tell her about the book I just finished or find out what she
thought of the new season of Downton Abbey. I won’t be able to tell her that a
park she took me to when I visited her in St. Louis was in an old Sandra
Bullock movie I watched last week.
The last time I saw her was in June. She came to town for work and we drove up to
Mt. Evens after work so that she could see the mountains. This is Diana at Echo Lake and it’s one of my
favorite photos of her. We drove halfway up the mountain and then down to
Evergreen where we had Mexican food and margaritas at The Whippletree.
Even though I’m devastated with sadness right now, I still
know how lucky I was to have had Diana in my life. She let me bitch and cry about
some of the most stupidest things, she gave encouragement and guidance in my
professional life and in my aspirations. When I was down she could always make
me laugh. She was smart and creative and
wise and I felt smarter, more creative and wiser just from knowing her.
Diana, I’m not ready to say goodbye just yet. I will always miss you.
Diana was a beautiful person and wish I could have spent as much time with her as you did. I only met her twice, both occassions were for work events and didn't allow for too much socializing. I am still stunned by her death as I did not know that she had been battling cancer. Thank you for writing such a lovely description of her and the time you spent together.
ReplyDeleteHi, this is Di's daughter... found this while torturing myself with a google search... I'm not ready for my mom to be gone yet, either. Would you mind emailing me this photo? I would love to have it. So gorgeous. Mom loved hanging out with you. Also, sorry I missed getting to meet you at the celebration this past weekend; thank you for being there.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this -- I can't believe I just discovered it now. And I'm not ready for her to be gone either, one year later. I met Diana through our blogs and was privileged to get to know her as an "in person" friend as well as a cyber one. I wrote this when Diana died -- about the time you did this post. (http://themarmeladegypsy.blogspot.com/2014/01/saying-goodbye-to-one-of-our-own.html) And you know, there has not been a single day since then that she hasn't passed my mind in one way or another. I am grateful that you were able to have her in your life as a friend, colleague and mentor.
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